Thursday, January 27, 2011

Weird dreams

Lately I've been having very vivid but weird dreams. Not all of them are bad dreams per se, but weird nonetheless.

The one I had last night was a particularly weird one. I was in a giant theme park kind of place with my brother and my little cousin, only I was my age, but my brother was much younger than me (he's only 1 year apart from me), and my cousin looked like when she was about six. In the dream, I distinctly remembered that I was with a group of friends before, and I had asked them if they'd wanted to come with us to the theme park, but they said no, so we'd left without them.

The scene changed to a cinema type place in this theme park. I don't remember what film it was showing, but I'd walked out holding my little cousin's hand and my brother following us, with the distinct feeling of being quite happy.

Next thing I remember, I see Stuart with my group of friends from before, walking past me, so of course I stop and say hello. I also said "I thought you guys didn't want to come to the theme park?". One of the girls in the group (who felt very much like a frenemy and was 13 from House (Olivia Wilde)) spoke up, "Oh, you didn't ask us to come along.", to which I angrily retorted "Yes, I did! I asked you and you guys didn't want to come!". She shrugged in a really annoying nonchalant manner and started walking off, and the rest of the group sort of follow her in a really robotic way. I look at Stuart and he stares right through me and walks off with the rest of the group, leaving me feeling small and very hurt.

Have you ever had the kind of dream where you knew it was a dream and you kept thinking, wake up, wake up right now because I don't want to be here any more, but try as you might, you couldn't? This dream was exactly like that, and all the feelings I felt in the dream, I could feel in real life. When I finally woke up, I felt like the dream was so real, and for that one irrational moment, I thought that it actually was happening in real life.

The night before I'd had a similar sort of lucid dream as well, only it was scarier and involved a lot of running around (I was running from a serial killer who tortured his victims in a dingy hospital operating room kind of setting before he murdered them), so that when I woke up I actually felt physically and mentally exhausted.

I remember a very vivid dream, that to this very day, I remember every single detail. I was a Jew, living in the time of the Holocaust. I remember having to run and hide from the Nazi soldiers, and the constant fear and terror I felt. In my dream I wept as I watched my world around fall apart. When I woke up, my pillow was wet, and I realised that the emotions I'd felt in my dream were so strong that I'd actually cried in real life.

But then there are nights where I don't think I dream at all. It's just a huge black blank between falling asleep and suddenly, the next thing I know, I'm waking up. It's bizzare.

Stuart says I'm a weirdo. I don't know. I actually quite like that I have weird dreams. Means that I have a good imagination and an active subconscious, haha! :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Right, what's the point of this blog again? Sigh.

2011 isn't off to a great start, sadly.

Postman comes banging on my door this morning, and I get an official looking letter, and I think "Oh my god, yay! The visa people were nice and rushed my application and they've sent it back already!" But, no. Wait a minute, it's a rejection letter.

Bloody fucking incredible.

Apparently they rejected it because the bank rejected the payment. Which is ridiculous because Dad got a message from them saying that the UK Home Office was taking the money. ARGH!

So anyways, I've now filled in a new application form, and am going to go through it (ALL OVER AGAIN, AS IF THE FIRST TIME WASN'T ENOUGH!!!) tonight.

It's super annoying. I suppose it's not a massive deal, but anyone who's had to deal with visa stuff can attest to how much red tape one has to jump through and stupid mundane questions one has to fill out on these application forms.

Other than that, Christmas was great. Stu and I spent Christmas Eve in Nottingham. I made a turkey and everything!



We were invited to Ken and Kay's (Stuart's dad and his partner) place for Christmas dinner, so on Christmas morning, his dad came to pick us up. We had a lovely time chatting in front of a gorgeous fire, and then went to see Jo (Stuart's mom), after which we walked back to Stuart's house.

On Boxing Day, we went over to Ken and Kay's house again for lunch and spent most of the day in front of the fire again. We left around 8pm to see Hayley and Dave at the Sir John Cockle, where I also had my very first pub quiz! There was a music quiz which we won (no thanks to me, although I did know the title of one song, You Raise Me Up, by the way, haha.) and the other normal quiz, which we didn't win, but it was great fun nonetheless. We finished at about 11.30pm and caught a taxi back to Crown Street.

Oh, some bad news. Stuart's friend Chloe (who was renting his house) decided to move in with another friend, and so she's moving out of Stu's house quite soon. That means Stuart has to either move back to Mansfield (which isn't ideal) or get another tenant to rent his house. Poor thing, he's quite stressed out about all this and money stuff.

Right, now on to New Year's resolutions. Last year, I remember making a list which included "Shop less", which lasted about three days, and "Exercise more", which lasted about a day. This year, I'm going to try and make more realistic resolutions.

  1. Join a gym and work out at least 3 times a week, an hour each session.
  2. No shopping from New Year's day up till my birthday. (So far I've kept this one, so I'm doing good!)
  3. Get a job. (Duh.)
  4. Eat less junk food and more fruits and vegetables.
  5. Spend less on going out (eating at restaurants, nights out, etc.)
So, 5 resolutions should last me a year, I think.

Oh yes! Stuart and I have decided to start this thing called Project 365 (I typed 635 a minute ago, lol!). Basically, you take a picture everyday and upload it. Stu showed me this website, http://365project.org/ , which will make it easy to upload pictures and leave a description. Such a brilliant idea.

Right, I'm off to get something to eat now. Haven't eaten all day, thanks to the visa nonsense I've had to deal with. Sigh.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Lovefilm and Graduation Day

Recently Stuart signed up for Lovefilm, which is also accessible on his PS3, so we've been watching quite a lot of films on there.

We also get films on Blu-Ray discs sent to us. We saw Iron Man 1 and 2, Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire,  and Ratatouille recently. Stuart's catching up on the Harry Potter films because the seventh film is out and he wants to see the earlier ones before we go to the cinema to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.

Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian was quite good. I prefer the first one, The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, though. Prince Caspian had an awesome song when the credits came on, which I am now totally in love with, and have on repeat. It's a song by Regina Spektor, called The Call.



The lyrics are on the video, so I'm not going to bother posting the lyrics. But it's a truly gorgeous song and always makes me feel like crying.

ANYWAYS...

Graduation Day was yesterday and Stuart took the day off to see me graduate. It was bloody freezing, although not as bad as last week. In fact, it was nice and sunny, which was quite a change from the usual gloomy fog. We didn't stay long after the graduation ceremony, just long enough to take some pictures and then we left for home, where we had lunch and then promptly fell asleep because we were so tired.

We woke up around 5.30pm, just in time to go out for dinner. For a graduation celebration treat, Stuart took me to Sinatra's, which is a totally awesome restaurant just off Angel Row. I had lamb which was quite yummy, but Stuart's steak was gorgeous. I think we'll be going back there again, although maybe not too soon because it was rather pricey.

After dinner, we went to the cinema to see Rare Exports: A Christmas Tale. It's a Finnish film, but it has bits of English in it and is subtitled. It was quite good, although bordering on ridiculous, but still, I quite enjoyed it. When we got home, we watched an Icelandic Film called 101 Reykjavik, which came highly recommended from Stuart. It was interesting, to say the least, but it wasn't too bad, and it was pretty funny at some bits.

Stuart's got his Christmas work dinner tonight, so I'm going to have to scrounge around for some food, hehe. Holly was supposed to come up to Nottingham tonight but her plans fell through so I have nothing to do tonight. Stuart said he wasn't going to stay out late, but then again last time he said that, he came home very drunk at 5am. I really want to get out of the house for a bit, but I have to wait around for a delivery between 3pm and 4pm, so basically I can't go out.

Right. I'm off for a nice hot cup of tea. Hopefully there's something nice on TV.

Oh, and... ONLY 15 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!! :) :) :)

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Master of Science, Snow and 25 days to Christmas!

I meant to write this post 2 weeks ago, but I've been busy.

I GOT MY MASTERS, BITCHES!!!

I got my results back from university 2 weeks ago. When I woke up on Monday morning, I suddenly remembered that results would be posted online, and so I rushed to check it out. When I saw on the portal under "Qualification Awarded" it said "MSc", I literally bounced around for joy. I rang Stuart immediately, since he knew how nervous I was about my results, and he didn't pick up immediately. He rang me back at once and I wanted to scream down the phone but Tsomo was still sleeping, heh. I called Mom and Dad right after that to tell them the good news. Right now I'm just waiting for the right certificates and letters to apply for my Post-Study Work visa. In between I've been applying for jobs, but no news on that right now.

Weather in Nottingham has been ridiculously cold for November. Granted, it is the last day of November today, but it's been SNOWING. I don't remember it snowing in November last year. Apparently it's been snowing so bad that schools and colleges in Nottinghamshire have closed. There are lots of happy children around, haha! As much as I love how the snow makes everything look so pretty and wintry and Christmasy, I absolutely hate it when it melts and freezes over, making everything icy and slippery. I had to go out to the post office today to send a book I managed to sell on Amazon.co.uk, and it's horrible. I'm so afraid of slipping and falling straight on my ass! Apparently the snow's going to get much worse. Some parts of the UK are affected really badly, with people snowed in and unable to get groceries because the stores couldn't get stock in.

Stu and I were talking about Thanksgiving a while back, and we decided that it's silly that Thanksgiving isn't celebrated here, and so I decided to make Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday. I was going to make Thanksgiving dinner on Friday, but it was Mongolian Independence Day, so Tsomo made dinner instead and invited Jokha, Subha and James over. We played a few drinking games after dinner, which was very yummy, but I didn't get very far. Halfway through chatting and playing poker, I suddenly noticed it was snowing outside and practically screamed "IT'S SNOWING!". Tsomo and I were so excited and we ran downstairs to jump around in the snow and take pictures. The boys were all losers and stayed inside.

Saturday was spent in bed nursing a hangover, watching movies and having Chinese takeaway from Ocean City, conveniently located across the street. Did I mention that I love living so close to the city? Hehe!

I'm just sitting in bed now listening to Christmas songs. ONLY 25 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!! :) Pretty obvious I can't wait for Christmas, heh. Won't be the same without Uncle Francis, though. Sigh. It'll be the first Christmas without him, and it'll definitely be difficult to get through, since Christmas was always one of his favourite holidays and he always made a huge deal out of it.

Oh wells. I'm off for another cup of nice hot tea and to listen to more Christmas songs.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Early Christmas presents :)

So, Stu and I were supposed to keep our Christmas presents for each other a secret, but it got way too tempting. So on Monday, when we were walking to Peachy Keens to have dinner, we decided not to keep it a secret any longer. :)

I got Stu tour passes to Silverstone, since he's such an avid Formula One fan. Stu got me the most amazing present I've ever gotten (after the iPod from Uncle Francis), and it so happened that it was on my Christmas list! He got me a HTC Desire Z! Stu said he saw my blog post with my Christmas list after he'd ordered the phone, so it seemed like he'd read it and then got something off my list. Haha. It got delivered to his work yesterday after he'd left, and he very cleverly said he was going to Budgens to pick up some stuff for dinner, when he'd actually called a taxi and went all the way back to work to pick it up. :)

I LOVE MY NEW PHONE!!! It's sleek and gorgeous and really easy to use! It also has all these amazing apps that I could never get to work on my Nokia N97, which is now going to go to my dad. I LOVE MY PHONE! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!! :) :) :)

On another note, I LOVE MY AWESOME BOYFRIEND TOO! :) :) :)

Well, since we'd effectively 'ruined' Christmas Day (we didn't really, but meh), we decided we'd get each other another gift each to be opened on Christmas morning. I was at a loss at what to get Stuart, but then I suddenly had a brainwave, and so I've already purchased his second present. I hope he likes it. :)

We're going to London this weekend for the last F1 race of the year (I think). Dave will be driving us, so we've all made our own roadtrip mixes. Mine is AWESOME. (hehe)

I'm going to end this post here now. Going to play Angry Birds on my phone! *squeaks happily* :) :) :)

Geez, I used a lot of smiley faces in this post. Heh.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Settling in properly

So, things have been going great.

I got my results back last week. They're not great, in fact some of them are quite shitty, but it's still not too bad. I got 58 for my dissertation, which I'm quite psyched about. Still haven't got back the marks for the examinations I re-sat in the summer. Just got to wait on those to come back before I get my overall mark for my degree.

I FINALLY set up the account for the flat to pay council tax. Turns out we have to pay about £200 between the two of us! Ridiculous! :(

Halloween was spent in Ocean. Holly went as a dead girl, and I went as a cowgirl (with the boots and hat and everything!). Ocean was packed and we ended up going back around 1am because it was boiling hot and some dickhead threw a full bottle of VK into the crowded dancefloor and it went all over both of us, ruining an otherwise good night.

On Sunday, Stu and I were invited to Dave and Hayley's for Sunday lunch and to book our holiday to Prague. It's all booked now, and we're going to Prague on my birthday! Woohoo! Of course, this is if I get my visa in time.

I bought a few simple cross-stitch pieces from John Lewis. I forgot how much I loved to do that. I wonder if the sewing books that Uncle Francis gave me are still around. I'm doing a small piece right now, of Mr. Happy. Unfortunately I've run out of the red thread for the balloon Mr. Happy is holding, so the piece is still unfinished. Grr.

Stuart and I have been playing Rock Band a lot lately. I bought Rock Band 3, which came out recently, and Lego Rock Band last week, and we spent this weekend playing Rock Band which is awesome! :)

Anyways, I can't think of anything to get Stuart for Christmas. Boys are so hard to get gifts for. Girls are a breeze! Of course, no one should ever give gift vouchers, unless they're someone you don't know very well. Otherwise it's just really impersonal.

I'm gonna put together a list of things I want for Christmas (because I'm very bored and Veronica Mars is over.). Obviously, a lot of them are impractical or simply wishful thinking, but whatever, it's MY list! :)

  1. Jennifer Aniston Eau de Parfum
  2. A job
  3. Digital camera
  4. Get my ears pierced
  5. Chanel classic flap bag
  6. Ugg boots
  7. New glasses
  8. Seventeen nail polish in Raspberry Mocha
  9. ASOS black leather aviator jacket
  10. HTC Desire Z
Hmm, my list isn't that long actually, which surprises me a lot, haha! Can't wait for Christmas! :)

Friday, October 22, 2010

Long awaited post

Wow, almost a month ago since I last blogged.

Ok, quick post before I have to go get ready to go out to dinner with Okkar.

FINALLY!!! I HAVE INTERNET IN MY FLAT! :) :) :)

I heard this song on the new BT advertisement on TV and I'm in love with it! It's called Corner by Allie Moss, and it's such a gorgeous tune.



When your world trembles and quakes
And your footing suddenly shifts and shakes

Take my hand
We'll hide in the corner, hide in the corner
Take my hand
We'll hide till it's over, till it's all over

We have choices to make
We have promises that we can't break

There is nothing left to lose
So hold on to me, I'll hold on to you

Take my hand
We'll hide in the corner, hide in the corner
Take my hand
We'll hide till it's over, till it's all over

So, it's been just over a month since moving into the new flat. I really like it here. If I get a job in Nottingham, I might renew my contract for this flat. It's in a good location and spacious enough. The only drawback is the traffic noise from the road outside. I've almost forgotten what it's like to live in a quiet place.

Things so far are going great. Stuart and I have our ups and downs but it's all part and parcel of being a couple. That's what I love about being in a relationship. Yes, I know it sounds silly that I like the fact that we argue sometimes, but I think it's good for a couple to argue. In fact, arguing is just creative discussion :D Ok whatever. (You can tell I don't actually have a clue what I'm writing, I'm just typing whatever comes to mind as I'm sitting here on the sofa.)We've been talking with his friends David and Hayley about going to Prague for a holiday in January or February. I've never been before but always wanted to, so it'll be good. I just need to have my visa by then so I can actually go in and out of the UK easily.

Job-wise, that's going a bit slow for now. I've put a few applications through but nothing solid has come about yet. Plus, before I actually get my visa it'll be hard to get a job. Might do some work at the charity shop or get a part-time job. Christmas is coming up (CAN'T WAIT!!!) so maybe I can find some temp jobs to earn some extra cash.

Stu and I have been going through How I Met Your Mother pretty fast. Last weekend, we finished half of Season 1 and all of Season 2 (with Stu very drunk on a bottle of JD on Season 2). This weekend will probably be spent doing that. I like weekends where we just sprawl out on the couch and do nothing but watch TV episodes and movies. :)