I miss you

It's exactly 1 week to the day we lost you. It still hurts like hell to know you're gone.

Sigh.

Quick update.

Last Tuesday, Stu and I went to Mansfield to watch some films with Hayley and Dave. I forgot how boisterous Hayley's dog Olly was. The first film we watched was Chasing Amy, which was about lesbians. It was quite funny, but it's a pretty old film (as in, from the '90s), so I thought it was a little boring. Plus the girl Ben Affleck falls in love with has a super annoying squeaky voice, so that was rather irritating.

There was a huge debate afterwards about what film we should watch next. Hayley and I voted for Marley & Me, but the boys vehemently voiced their disagreement. In the end, we watched Lost Boys, an '80s vampire film, starring Kiefer Sutherland. It was very cheesy (as are most '80s films), and some of the dialogue was hilarious.

After that, Dave very kindly drove Stu and I all the way back to Nottingham. By the time we reached home, it was almost midnight. We were pretty tired and went to bed almost immediately.

On Thursday and Friday, Tsomo and I spent most of the day viewing apartments. We're going to be roomies next month! :) But we saw one on Friday that we really liked and decided to take it. It's very near to Nottingham city centre, at a place called Ropewalk Court. We'll be moving in at the beginning of September. Can't wait!

Len and Holly came over on Friday night to play games on Stu's PS3 and for drinks. It was fun, but I was really knackered and conked out before 2am. I didn't even know when Len left. I do remember waking up feeling confused at one point in the night, and the boys had left BioShock on on the PS3 and left the room (I thought at first Len had left and Stu was walking him out, but I saw Len's cool Pacman bag on the floor still so I knew they'd gone out so Len could smoke), and the game was making weird scary noises, and me being me, felt really creeped out, even though I was half asleep. So I turned on the radio and went straight back to sleep.

Saturday was crap weather-wise, but Stu still was a darling and went shopping with me without complaining (much). I bought a new black blazer from New Look. It'll come in handy for interviews and such, if I even ever come to that.

I'm trying to understand the whole Java thing for my exam tomorrow. Pretty sure I'm going to tank it. Sigh.

It still feels wrong to feel happy, or to smile and laugh. I try my hardest not to think about you, but sometimes I do, and feels so painful. Mom's having a hard time dealing with all this. I'm worried about her. Please watch over her and help her through this difficult time.

I miss you so much.

Secrets

In a pathetic attempt to take my mind off things that have happened recently, Stuart and I went to the cinema on Sunday and yesterday to watch 4 more movies in Cineworld. That's 8 films in less than a month. We're definitely making very good use of our Unlimited cards.

On Sunday, we saw The Karate Kid, starring Jaden Smith (Will Smith's son) and Jackie Chan. It was pretty cool. Jaden Smith acts like his father, which isn't a bad thing, since Will Smith is a pretty good actor. He's gonna grow up to be quite an idol for teenage girls, I bet. Jackie Chan was cool, as usual. Although the film was called "The Karate Kid", it really was more like "The Kung Fu Kid", which apparently, is what it's called in Asia.

After that, we had dinner in Tamatanga because we had 2 for 1 vouchers on the back of our movie ticket stubs. It was pretty good, but really filling. The restaurant even offered us takeaway boxes, but as we were going for another movie right after dinner, we had to decline.

We then went back to the cinema to see Knight and Day, starring stupid little Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. We got to the screen, thinking that there would be quite a few people there, but it was bloody empty. However, people came streaming in afterwards, including a bunch of noisy people who plonked down right in front of us, who thankfully shut up during the film.

The movie was silly and cheesy and quite predictable, but it made me laugh at some parts. I wouldn't exactly call it a flop, but it wasn't great either.

Then, on Monday, I met Stuart at The Cornerhouse after he finished work and we saw The Sorceror's Apprentice, with Nicholas Cage, Monica Belluci and Alfred Molina. It was typical Disney crap, cheesy and all that, but still pretty good. They had some good music in their soundtrack.

Here's one of the songs, my favourite from the film.



It's called Secrets, by One Republic. I think it's such a beautiful song. Kudos to whoever chose it to be in the movie.

After the movie, we went to Wetherspoons for dinner. I had my long-awaited all-day breakfast. I don't quite understand why they serve chips with all-day breakfast. Who has chips for breakfast?!

After dinner, we went to see Step Up 3D, which I think Stuart was quite reluctant to see. But it was pretty awesome. I wish I could dance like that. Obviously, in a film like this, the storyline is going to be shit as hell, but the whole point is to showcase the dancing, so it was great. Plus, the lead guy, whatever his name is, is gorgeous. :)

This whole "trying to take my mind off things" isn't really working. No matter what, I keep thinking about it. It sucks, and it's totally unfair.

Well, tonight Stuart and I are going to Mansfield to watch some movies with David and Hayley. Maybe that will help distract me.

Slipped Away

I miss you
I miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same


I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I hope you can hear me
Cos' I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same

The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found
It won't be the same


I miss you

Love The Way You Lie

Just thought I'd post the video of Eminem and Rihanna's new(ish) song, Love The Way You Lie.

Guys, Megan Fox is in it, and she's hot. (Even though I secretly hate her. ALOT.)



What the hell is Rihanna doing to her look nowadays?! She used to look so gorgeous. Ok, she's still really pretty but what's with the mohawk kind of hairstyle, and now it's bright red as well. Sigh.

Eminem looks pretty damn good, though. :) I like him with dark hair instead of the platinum blonde hair before. I guess I've always had a thing for dark haired guys. I'm not one to go after those blonde Abercrombie and Fitch types.

Went out last night with Stuart and Len for drinks. Holly was supposed to come out but in the end she wasn't really in the mood to hang out. :(

My mom says my uncle's a little better today, but he's back to refusing to eat. Sigh. I really hope he's ok. My mom keeps saying "Don't worry, stop worrying" and all kinds of other crap, but honestly, it's easier said than done. I know I'm thousands of miles away and I can't actually do anything to help or whatever, but I can't help but think about it all the time AND worry. It's ridiculous. The phrase "Don't worry" just makes me worry about him more. Totally oxymoronic (I don't even know if that's a word. BAH. Whatever.).

I feel really tired now. Just tired of life and everything.

God, I sound so incredibly emo that I wanna shoot myself.

Basshunter

So, went to the doctor yesterday and came back after being told exactly what I knew before. I think nowadays, doctors will become redundant, since anyone who watches House, ER or Grey's Anatomy can self-diagnose and self-medicate. (Ok, not REALLY, but you know what I mean.)

Last night I felt slightly better when I went to bed and my throat stopped hurting (miraculously). But this morning it was burning again, and now it really hurts when I swallow. Sigh. It must have just been the paracetamol and ibuprofen at work last night. Today, my jaw's starting to hurt, for some very strange reason, and my headache's still pounding incessantly away. Oh, and the back of my throat is still inflammed as ever.

Wonderful.

Got some bad news from back home. On Sunday, my dad texted me.

This was his text: "Hi Cheryl, uncle Francis now in hospital intensive care. Update u later"

Who texts like that?! I need more information!

The good news is that he's just been released from ICU and is now in a normal ward.

Still very upsetting, but I won't go into that right now.

Moving on to happy things now!

Ok, this is gonna be totally random, but here goes.

I know his music's really cheesy and it's basically Euro trash, but I love Basshunter! (And he's cute, so that's a bonus! ;) )

I love how the music videos have a story. Plus the girl is really hot. (She's a porn star, by the way.)

I'll put the videos up in chronological order. I'm sure you'll recognise some of the songs. (Ok, like I said it's cheesy Europop music, but some of the tunes are pretty catchy, so give it a listen! :) Can't hurt, can it?)

Now You're Gone


All I Ever Wanted


Angel in the Night


I Miss You


Every Morning (My favourite video! You'll see why, haha...)


I Promised Myself


The last video leaves the story on a cliffhanger. Does the boy get the girl? Does he not get the girl? Who knows? Hopefully he comes up with another video. I want to know what happens!

My head really hurts now, so that's it for now!

Sick and Moody

So... Latest news on the streets: I'm ill.

I've been struck down in the prime of life by a vicious bug. The past two days were spent with a high fever and constant headache, plus an annoying grating cough and a very swollen throat.

Today is worse.

I got out of bed today, early as usual, to let Stuart out of the building, and went straight back to bed. Woke up 2 hours later boiling hot and covered in sweat. I thought, oh good, maybe my fever's sweated out now. But no, my fever was still raging on.

This entry already seems pretty gross.

Anyways, I've got an appointment with a nurse at Cripps Health Centre at 5 this afternoon, so they can give me something that'll just knock me out or whatever.

The worst thing about being sick is that when your body needs sleep the most, it never seems to let you get any actual sleep. The past two nights, I must have woken up at least three or four times in the night, sitting up way to fast from shock and thus incurring a blinding pain in my head.

Of all days to have lovely weather, it has to be today. WHEN I AM SICK.

Bloody English weather.

Today, the sun is my worst enemy. It's too bright outside and everything looks so cheery that I just want to smack something cute and fluffy. Or anyone who laughs and looks too happy.

Ok, I might be delirious on the paracetamol that I've taken (or the fever's messed with my brain functions), I'm not actually going to smack something cute and fluffy. I might just hit the happy people, though.

Sigh. Don't worry, I'm not completely mental. Yet.

I do like being sick though, just a little, although I would like to feel better ASAP. I can lie in bed all day and no one will yell at me for it. And people do stuff for you! :) (By the way, sorry Stuart, for being such a whiny pain in the ass, and for being completely fickle about food and not eating the chicken and bacon pasta you bought for me last night.)

Everything tastes like ass. Honestly, putting condiments of any sort on food right now just seems to make it taste worse, like battery acid or something. Gross. Even water tastes disgusting and I have to drink a ton of it because somehow I feel thirsty all the time.

Whoever passed this stupid bug to me, damn you. Damn you to hell.

Movies and Shooting Stars

Hmm. This whole "updating more" thing isn't really working.

I'm supposed to be working on Java now, but I got distracted. :)

I've done 1 exercise today. Lots more to do. Sigh.

Stuart and I have Unlimited cards at Cineworld now. This means we can watch all the movies we want for only £13.50 a month! The day we got the cards (Monday), Stu printed our temporary passes out at his workplace, and we saw Toy Story 3 in 3D and Inception on the same night.

Toy Story 3 is awesome! I saw Toy Story 2 some time last week and it was amazing, but Toy Story 3 trumps the lot. Yup, I knew I was gonna weep through that movie, so I actually bought a packet of tissues for that purpose. They came in very useful indeed! Only the theatre wasn't very full, so I had to control the amount of sniffling I did! But I'm pretty sure the girl in the row in front of me was sobbing on her boyfriend's shoulder too, so I wasn't the only one crying! But there were funny parts as well, so it was all good. In fact, I laughed through my tears during some sad parts too! Amazing film overall. Needless to say, I walked out of Toy Story 3 with very puffy red eyes.

After a trip to the bathroom for a futile attempt at salvaging my wrecked makeup (and indeed, wrecked face!), we bought our tickets for Inception and then had Subway for dinner.

Inception is pretty brilliant too. It's one of those films where your mind couldn't wander and you had to concentrate entirely on the film, otherwise you'd lose the storyline. The cinematography was superb, but the music was kind of irritating. Those who've seen Shutter Island will know what I'm talking about. I swear, the entire score is one note, just at different pitches and octaves. Freakin' insane. However, I didn't find Inception that difficult to get. It was very interesting, and the concept is a little hard to grasp, but it's actually quite easy to get the whole story. Wasn't as hard work trying to get the plot as most people made out to be.

We got back pretty late after the movies, and were both very tired. But we still managed to play Bejeweled 2 for awhile, haha! Stu also played some other game and got a trophy before he finally went to bed.

On Tuesday, Stuart and I were still very excited about our Unlimited cards, and so we made another trip to the cinema after Stu finished work to see The A-Team and Twilight: Eclipse. The A-Team is really funny, and as most would expect, very ridiculous as well. Bradley Cooper is freakin' hot! (Sorry, the only reason I'm gonna watch The A-Team is for him!) Ok, fine, Liam Neeson as well then.

Twilight: Eclipse is everything I wanted it to be. It didn't really follow the book very closely, but it was still not bad. I love Edward Cullen! Bella (Kristen Stewart) just irritated me throughout the film. She wears a wig because her real hair's really short now for another film, and it's really obvious, which annoyed me even more. The fight scene between the vampires and werewolves was awesome. Can't wait for Breaking Dawn now! Kelly says they're making that into 2 films because the book was so long. Kind of what they've done with the last Harry Potter film (which I totally want to see too!).

I just glanced out the window and the weather is SHIT.

Last night, Stuart wanted to see the northern lights, so we went outside at 1am, which was supposedly the optimum time to see them. However, it was too cloudy to see anything. Haha, when we first went outside, I thought a hazy cloud was what we were looking for! It was quite cold, even though I'd wrapped up in a giant pink jumper. I got tired of standing and staring up after awhile (your neck gets all cramped up!), so I lay down on the ground to look at the sky.

Then, suddenly, I saw this streak across the sky. It was a shooting star! I'd never seen a shooting star before, so I was understandably quite excited, bouncing around like a kid who sees snow for the first time. What's more, I saw two more after that. Pretty amazing, seeing 3 shooting stars on the same night.

Such simple little things like looking at the stars in the night sky (preferably when it's not cloudy so you can actually see the stars), or taking a walk just because you feel like it, or just lying on the grass in the sun... All such amazing things to do, especially with someone special. I wonder why people don't do it more often. It's inexpensive and easy to do. I don't get it. I mean, it's fun to go out with friends and have a few drinks or whatever, but it's nice to go somewhere quiet with that special someone. You don't even have to talk or look at each other. Just being there with one another is pretty great too.

Sorry, the over-romantic gland that only I seem to possess had some sort of fit just now.

Such a simple phrase, but my heart beats faster every time I hear or say it. :)



This song sure fits my mood now. :)